Thursday, March 04, 2010

Heaven On the Mind


Today I was sitting in College Writing II, daydreaming as usual. I can't remember what sparked my imagination on this particular day, but I suddenly had a very tangible image of heaven in my mind.

I was thinking about that day--what it would finally feel like to see God face to face--and I began to wonder about something I have never thought about before. Imagine that day, standing in our white robes in the glory of God's physical presence. We feel completely different--everything seems real, as if sin was masking dimensions of reality that we never even dreamed of. We realize how fake our short lives in sin really were. In anticipation, we watch the events of universal judgment play out . . .

And what if while we watch God separate the saved from the lost, we suddenly realize that the ratios don't seem right. A great multitude of the saved stand apart from maybe a dozen of the lost. And while we wonder, How can this be? How can there be so few who are lost? Christ answers, My grace abounds beyond your wildest dreams.

That thought meant so much to me--even writing about it makes me emotional. I understand it may not be realistic. God's grace doesn't have power over people who reject him. But that image--so few being lost--defines the mission of my life. If every Christian steps up to the full life of love that God has called us to, I have no doubt that we can literally change the outcome of judgment day.

I want that so badly. I want heaven to be a place for all people. I want to be surprised when I see relatives and friends I never thought I would see there. In tears, they would tell me about that person who introduced them to Christ's saving grace. Let's be that person. I don't want to have to make new friends in heaven.


Tuesday, March 02, 2010

Within Our Reach


Sometimes I wonder why I'm in Lincoln, Nebraska. You might think that I become most restless when the crappy winter storms come or midterms seem to never end. But it's really on days like today, when the sun is warm and the first scents of spring drift on the breeze, that I become uncomfortable.

There is so much. So much I want to do. So many beautiful places I want to see. I've known for a while that I could never work a regular 9-5 job. And thankfully, God has led me to my passion--helping people--and this school that never stops inspiring me. But even with all that reassurance, I still can't help screaming the question, What is my place in this world?!

Maybe it was because of the weather, or maybe it was because I'm about to set out on another adventure, but I couldn't get the Chicago Basin out of my mind today. It's just one of those beautiful places in this world that I've only seen in pictures. My heart has ached to go there for two years, and the irony of it is that I could drive there in a day. Then I began to wonder, If I'm so desperate to experience something, and it is within my reach, what's holding me back?

The answer, of course, is nothing. So I set a date, and now I have something to look forward to.

Why can't I live more of my life in passionate pursuit of something? It seems like I'm so quick to forget the big picture of what I'm doing here, why I'm taking the classes I'm taking, and what God has called me to accomplish. We as Christians are called to be big picture people. We have one focus--Christ--and one mission--to know him more. I am desperate to experience Christ, and he is within me reach. What can possibly hold me back?

The answer, again, is nothing.