Sometimes I wonder why I'm in Lincoln, Nebraska. You might think that I become most restless when the crappy winter storms come or midterms seem to never end. But it's really on days like today, when the sun is warm and the first scents of spring drift on the breeze, that I become uncomfortable.
There is so much. So much I want to do. So many beautiful places I want to see. I've known for a while that I could never work a regular 9-5 job. And thankfully, God has led me to my passion--helping people--and this school that never stops inspiring me. But even with all that reassurance, I still can't help screaming the question, What is my place in this world?!
Maybe it was because of the weather, or maybe it was because I'm about to set out on another adventure, but I couldn't get the Chicago Basin out of my mind today. It's just one of those beautiful places in this world that I've only seen in pictures. My heart has ached to go there for two years, and the irony of it is that I could drive there in a day. Then I began to wonder, If I'm so desperate to experience something, and it is within my reach, what's holding me back?
The answer, of course, is nothing. So I set a date, and now I have something to look forward to.
Why can't I live more of my life in passionate pursuit of something? It seems like I'm so quick to forget the big picture of what I'm doing here, why I'm taking the classes I'm taking, and what God has called me to accomplish. We as Christians are called to be big picture people. We have one focus--Christ--and one mission--to know him more. I am desperate to experience Christ, and he is within me reach. What can possibly hold me back?
The answer, again, is nothing.
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